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[11: 56 am
Wednesday, 10/14/09] |
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"It's exhausting being incredibly, indescribably pleased."
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[12: 15 am
Sunday, 10/04/09] |
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Sometimes I think my sole purpose in the universe is to make others happy at my own expense.
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[09: 40 pm
Monday, 09/07/09] |
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It hurts.
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[12: 08 pm
Wednesday, 07/29/09] |
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This is my rifle. There are many like it, but this one is mine. Without my rifle, I am nothing.
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[06: 03 pm
Saturday, 07/25/09] |
"I'd rather run the other way then stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears."
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[04: 39 pm
Tuesday, 07/21/09] |
Never have I ever wanted to pack up and run away as badly as I do right now.
My regrets are
What keep me still alive
I need to make
Up for all the lies
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[11: 19 pm
Monday, 07/20/09] |
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I'm using you. I don't care about you. I'm just passing the time. You're just a number. Just the next best thing.
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[01: 33 am
Sunday, 07/19/09] |
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Seriously. Fuck all of this. I just want my numbers up. I want to fuck and not feel. Period. I want to fuck you and forget you. Because I can't and I don't care about anyone these days.
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| Kid |
[04: 07 am
Saturday, 07/18/09] |
And this is how our lovely friendship started.
kole_miester
2004-09-01 05:47 pm UTC (link)
hmmm...... what would i do for a klon-dyke..........whoops did i say that?
ha! yeah i don't think id really do anything for a klondike bar. now strabucks icecream on the other hand.....
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[06: 37 pm
Friday, 06/12/09] |
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She said it.
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[05: 39 pm
Tuesday, 06/09/09] |
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What if I'm right? Are you willing to take that chance? To just give up?
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[10: 28 pm
Wednesday, 06/03/09] |
The answer is staring you in the face but you have to make it complicated because you're just too fucking damaged to know what makes you happy.
ORLANDO COULD NOT COME FAST ENOUGH.
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[10: 32 pm
Wednesday, 05/27/09] |
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Some nights... I just wish you would call me from a private number and sing me to sleep.
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| How deep is your vagina? |
[05: 24 pm
Monday, 05/25/09] |
I probably would have felt more inclined to update on the hilariousness of last night if my cousin hadn't just disowned me for being depressed. So naturally, I feel like breaking down because now I am a "burden" to her.
I met Britt last night after 5 years of being friends with the girl and bitching to her about life all the time. I wish we were better friends.
Who the fuck just drops their blood like that? We were fucking close. I am every bitches burden. Fuck this.
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[02: 29 pm
Friday, 05/22/09] |
For the first time in my life I am genuinely worried about all the junk I eat. My stomach just isn't as flat as it used to be and that gets to me, which in turn, makes me feel pathetic for sounding like one of those kinda girls.
Time for a change.
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[11: 25 pm
Sunday, 05/17/09] |
I need you.
41 days. The countdown begins.
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| Blame the roots |
[11: 49 pm
Friday, 05/15/09] |
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Being in Orlando makes me feel so hood.
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[01: 46 am
Saturday, 05/09/09] |
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For the first time in over two years I am talking to Patrick.
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[12: 03 am
Friday, 04/24/09] |
So much damage has been done.. so much.
And at the end of the day....
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[07: 09 pm
Tuesday, 04/14/09] |
Oh I get by with a little help from my friends,
Mmm I get high with a little help from my friends,
Oh I'm gonna try with a little help from my friends
Do you need anybody?
I just need someone to love.
Could it be anybody?
I want somebody to love
I'm gonna be your biggest addiction.
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[06: 59 pm
Sunday, 04/12/09] |
Ashleigh, yes, it was a messed up comment and I shouldn't have started shit. But that's it. That's all I'm sorry for.
As for you, Marylin, I really don't have anything to say to you. You've got no idea who I am these days and it's pathetic that you would bring up shit from almost 3 years ago. Things change. You have changed, so have I. Know your shit.
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| Whoa, a real update?! |
[07: 53 pm
Thursday, 04/09/09] |
Okay. Just a few things.
For starters, last night I ended up going to the Fair.
"Kim, you're putting it in the wrong hole!"
-"Wow, I've never gotten that before."
Moving along.
Whimsy lady had to have done drugs at some point in her life.
She googled Google. And actually clicked the link to it.
"I don't know if you've ever picked up a Playboy, it can be kind of raunchy, I mean there's naked women, but..."
Ladies and gentlemen, welcome to Childrens Lit.
And with that I leave you an original Kim poem:
(Currently untitled)
Scrub-a-dub-dub
There's an elephant in my tub
I thought it would be a laugh
To try and give him a bath
He filled up his trunk
There was a "splash!" and "KER-PLUNK"
Before I knew what to do
I was taking a bath too!
=]
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[04: 55 pm
Monday, 03/30/09] |
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The thing is, I can be angry. It gets me by. I can work myself up enough to be FURIOUS with you. But sometimes. I feel like I'm falling apart remembering the good times. What could have been. It's those times that I start wondering if you still have dreams about me. I guess I'm just waiting for you to wake up one day and realize how completely FUCKED you are for choosing him. I know you love me. What I don't know is why you gave that up to live an unhappy life that you are bleeding away by your own hand.
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[08: 28 pm
Sunday, 03/29/09] |
Honestly?
I'm just not okay. And I can't remember a time I ever was.
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| I LOVE YOU KRISTY! |
[07: 07 pm
Thursday, 03/26/09] |
FUCK YOU MIAMI, I'M OUTTA HERE!
I GOT INTO UCF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[01: 44 pm
Monday, 03/23/09] |
I fear writing has just become something I say I want to do with my life because I really have no clue what I want.
I'm ready to throw everything away and start over.
I deserve better.
You were the biggest let down of my life so far.
You make me sick.
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| It might look like an Avril song called "Girlfriend" but alas! Look closely! |
[09: 51 pm
Tuesday, 03/17/09] |
[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your boyfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
No, it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
[Verse 1]
You’re so fine
I want you mine
You’re so delicious
I think about ya all the time
You’re so addictive
Don’t you know what I could do to make you feel alright?
Don’t pretend I think you know I’m damn precious
And Hell Yeah
I’m the motherfucking princess
I can tell you like me too and you know I’m right
[Bridge:]
He’s like so whatever
And you could do so much better
I think we should get together now
And that’s what everyone’s talking about!
[Chorus:]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I don’t like your boyfriend!
No way! No way!
I think you need a new one
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I could be your girlfriend
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
You know it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
[Verse 2]
I can see the way, I see the way you look at me
And even when you look away I know you think of me
I know you talk about me all the time again and again
So come over here, tell me what I want to hear
Better yet make your boyfriend disappear
I don’t want to hear you say his name ever again
(And again and again and again!)
[Bridge]
[Chorus]
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I know that you like me
No way! No way!
You know it’s not a secret
Hey! Hey! You! You!
I want to be your girlfriend
In a second you’ll be wrapped around my finger
Cause I can, cause I can do it better
There’s no other
So when's it gonna sink in?
He’s so stupid
What the hell were you thinking?!
[repeat]
[Chorus]
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[06: 00 pm
Monday, 03/09/09] |
Going to Orlandoooooo. Gone until Thursdayyyyy. Gonnaaaa get CRUNK. lmao. Lesbian club! w00t w00t! 8)
Sofa King Ex Cited!!!!!!!!!!!!
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[08: 47 pm
Thursday, 02/19/09] |
iisjaythegreat (8:03:39 PM): i just wanted to apoligize for everythingiisjaythegreat (8:03:49 PM): i hate myself for it iisjaythegreat (8:03:57 PM): you're an amazing person iisjaythegreat (8:04:05 PM): dont forget that iisjaythegreat (8:04:24 PM): tell your family i love them and thank you for everything iisjaythegreat (8:05:02 PM): maybe we'll meet up in some other life. you never know. iisjaythegreat (8:05:31 PM): If you don't hear from me.... iisjaythegreat (8:05:45 PM): ever again iisjaythegreat (8:06:26 PM): actually iisjaythegreat (8:06:26 PM): you won't iisjaythegreat (8:06:26 PM): so iisjaythegreat (8:06:26 PM): take care of yourself. iisjaythegreat (8:06:33 PM): Bye kim iisjaythegreat signed off at 8:45:22 PM.
The girl I'm in love with tried to kill herself. Tell me again how she's better off there?
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[05: 00 pm
Sunday, 01/04/09] |
I have a very strong feeling that there is no one for me in Miami.
I really want to leave more than anything.
EDIT: I didn't get in.
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[02: 25 am
Sunday, 12/28/08] |
So. I haven't felt the need to write in here at all, but I did want to talk about Xmas. Sort of. At least what Kristy gave me.
I've been awake a little too long, watching tv a little too calmly. She gave me one of those leather bound blank journals that Ie always wanted. And that alone blew me away. And I've been re-reading it, and I just keep thinkiing it's the best present I've ever got from a friend. Seriously. I'm glad she's my friend. Kristy, you;ve been amazing. <3
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[11: 10 pm
Thursday, 10/09/08] |
I give and I give.
And they take and they take.
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[05: 05 pm
Sunday, 08/17/08] |
My schedule for school is as follows:
| | Monday | Tuesday | Wednesday | Thursday | Friday | | 12:00 PM | LIT2480 (12-1:15) | | | | LIT2480 (12-1:15) | | 12:30 PM | ENL2012 (12:20-1:55) | | ENL2012 (12:20-1:55) | | 1:00 PM | | | 1:30 PM | | | | | 2:00 PM | | | | | 2:30 PM | | | | | | | 3:00 PM | | | | | | | 3:30 PM | CGS1060 (3:30-5:10) | SPC1026 (3:30-4:45) | CGS1060 (3:30-5:10) | SPC1026 (3:30-4:45) | | | 4:00 PM | | | 4:30 PM | | | 5:00 PM | | | |
It's safe to assume, I will be closing many nights in the future.
Fucking Fall is gonna be crazy.
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[02: 58 pm
Monday, 07/28/08] |
dipmaster888: ok look, Im sorry for embarrassing you and being an asshole. I just want you to know im sorry.
What part of "I don't want you in my life" was hard to understand?
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[09: 52 pm
Friday, 07/04/08] |
Maybe it's good that I'm at work on the fourth of July.
At least I'm getting paid time and a half. -_-
EDIT: Work was dead as fuck and since Chantel was the shift, we cleaned.
However, when I got home, got a little tipsy with my mom. Lmao.
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[03: 33 am
Tuesday, 07/01/08] |
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I should have stopped. He was wincing in pain. His leg was torn up, his bike in pieces, and so many, too many cars just passing by. One woman, one, stopped. That makes me like the rest of them. I should have stopped.
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[03: 33 pm
Thursday, 06/26/08] |
Random stranger dude: You look really cool, I just wanted to say that.
Me: Uh, thanks.
Random stranger dude: I just wanted to tell you that. You look cool. I like your style. You look cute.
Me: Thanks. [Awkward smile.]
Random stranger dude: WHere are you from?
Me: Here. You?
Random stranger dude: Here, you?
Me: Uh, pretty close to here actually.
Random stranger dude: Oh cool. Are you single?
Me: Uh, yes...
[Really freaked out now. Pulled out my phone to text Jimii and tell her to hurry it up out of the bathroom. Lukcy for me, he took it the wrong way....]
Random stranger dude: Oh uh [starts giving me his number]
Me: Oh wait, uh... [Awkwardly put my phone away.]
Random stranger dude: Well, I'm Ozzy.
Me: Kim. [Sticks hand out to shake.]
Ozzy: Can I? [KISSES HAND.]
[REALLY WISHING JIMII WOULD HURRY THE FUCK UP.]
Ozzy: What's your number?
Me: Oh, uh. [WTF DO YOU SAY TO THAT.]
{Stupidly, in low voice, gives number. Jimii walks out of bathroom.]
Me: Uh, be right back.
[Drags Jimii back into the bathroom and tells everything, then proceeds to covertly exit store.]
I am SO not used to that. I think I'll better prepare for next time.
Oh and. I did get a call last night. From "Number Unavailable." And no, I did NOT answer.
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[09: 01 pm
Wednesday, 06/18/08] |
I stayed out until 3. With Jimii.
All mom said, "That's too late."
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[05: 08 pm
Monday, 06/09/08] |
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Who am I?
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[08: 33 pm
Saturday, 06/07/08] |
I just got over $5000 in grants for school.
Plus Bright Futures. =D
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[05: 47 pm
Tuesday, 06/03/08] |
So. Two things have made my day.
Talking to Jimii online, with her watching me on cam, listening to music sing/typing our hearts out and laughing hysterically.
And this:
Tilo says: I kissed a girlll, and I liked it :x KissTheStrange: lmao I LOVE THAT SONG! Tilo says: YES Tilo says: I do too!!!!! Tilo says: Its incredible Tilo says: It makes me want to kiss girls Tilo says: :x KissTheStrange: LMFAO Tilo says: Bro I love singing that song Tilo says: Makes me feel like I was gay and came out of the closet straight
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[11: 59 am
Tuesday, 06/03/08] |
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[12: 03 pm
Tuesday, 05/27/08] |
Liquor
Liquor
Lickor
Licker
Lick-er
Lick her
Lick her
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[04: 50 am
Thursday, 05/15/08] |
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Four hours.
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[09: 10 pm
Monday, 05/05/08] |
I suppose it's time for a real update?
Last week I got my Lit final back. In fact, she used my paper as an example in front of the class. I got a 100 on that paper. =] However, I ended up with a B average in the class cuz I'm a lazy fuck and I never took quizzes or did the journal entries. Meh. I was so pissed at myself when I found out I would've had an A in the class.
So overall, my grades for the term are as stands:
Lit- B
Humanities- B
Math- A
Science- A
Weird no? That I would get an A in my two worst subjects? Haha.
So since my grades were so fantastic, my GPA has been brought up to a 3.12! Which excites me more than I can even explain, because I need at least a 3.0 to keep Bright Futures. So I won't have to pay for Fall term, thank gawd.
Moving along.
I got my evaluation at work today. Basically Ada told me I'm on the right track and now I'm making a bit more money than what I had been making.
I'm going to Rapids this weekend with Karen, Michael, and Jimii. =] Yes, things are still going well. I'm not freaking out about anything and I've got my positive outlook. I think she needs it complicated so that her feelings are more obvious, if that makes sense. We both know she has feelings for me, so perhaps things will work out in a good way?
Furthermore.
My car is still a POS because my step dad told me it's leaking something. HOWEVER. I found my dream car on autotrader.com for $11,500. Purple manual 350z. Omg. I want it so bad. Need to talk to dad. Emailed him the link asking for it for my birthday. lmao. I want itttttt.
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[03: 37 am
Friday, 05/02/08] |
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Yep, totally feel like an ass.
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